The year unfolded not with fireworks of hope
But with the flicker of a dim candle,
Its light struggling against the cold winds of sickness.
January arrived heavy, not with new beginnings,
But with frailty in my body,
A lingering weakness that whispered louder with each passing day.
And it didn’t leave.
Month by month, the shadow of illness followed,
Returning like an uninvited guest.
Some days, I could rise above it;
Other days, it clung to me like a fog,
Draining not just my strength but my spirit.
What once was routine became an uphill climb,
And I wondered, often, if it would ever relent.
Work, too, brought its storms.
The tasks piled high, demanding more than I felt I had to give.
Every decision seemed heavy,
Every challenge a reminder of my limits.
Some days, I met those challenges with resolve,
But many others, they left me questioning—
Was I enough? Could I truly endure this?
The weight of expectation pressed hard against my weary heart,
But there was no room to stop, no chance to step away.
Home, my sanctuary, became another place of uncertainty.
The steady foundations of my life showed signs of their own fragility.
Their health faltered,
And with it came a wave of helplessness.
I watched, prayed, and worried.
Their pain felt like my own,
Their struggles mirrored my own need for strength.
And then came the matters of the heart.
Ah, the heart - so hopeful, so easily entangled.
This year, it found itself caught in a web of confusion,
In a relationship that promised much
But delivered a strange kind of ache.
Hope would rise and fall,
Moments of joy blurred by questions that lingered too long.
Was it love, or was it something less?
Was it meant to heal me, or teach me something I wasn’t ready to face?
In the end, it left me not fulfilled but fractured,
Wondering where I stood and who I was becoming.
Through all of this, loneliness wove itself into the fabric of my days.
Even surrounded by others, I often felt unseen, unheard.
Friendships seemed distant,
The world carried on without pause,
And I. . .just one small figure in the noise. . .
Found myself yearning for a connection
Yet unable to bridge the gap.
But in the stillness,
When the chaos of the world quieted,
I found a presence that never left me.
When I felt forgotten, God whispered, “I see you.”
When I felt overwhelmed, His peace met me.
When I felt weak, His strength carried me.
2024 was a year that stripped me bare...
Of my certainties, of my comforts, of my illusions.
And yet, it was in that barrenness
That I saw His fullness.
His Word became my anchor,
His promises my lifeline.
Even when the storms didn’t cease,
Even when the answers didn’t come,
His presence reminded me: I was not alone.
This year was not easy;
It tested every part of me.
My health, my heart, my resolve
All stretched thin, all laid bare.
But even in the valley,
Even when it felt like I had nothing left,
God was there, shaping me, holding me.
2024 was not the year I expected,
But it was the year that showed me what truly remains.
Not my strength, but His.
Not my plans, but His purpose.
And so, as the year closes,
I look back, weary but held,
Shaken but standing,
Grateful not for the trials
But for the God who carried me through them.